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A struggling artist trying to make it. Sometimes I'll indulge in fandom amidst artwork postings and sketches. Actually most of the time. Also, I apparently have a lot of feelings about racism and sexism.

Current shows I'm watching are Nikita, Hawaii Five-O, The Walking Dead, Elementary, probably more to come as long as people of color are represented.

Anti white washing, anti white privilege, anti racism, anti sexism, anti all other isms...people just need to be decent people.

“I don’t believe that you’re American”

blackinasia:

Last night I went out with some friends, including one Taiwanese American and one Chinese American friend of mine for a birthday party. During the course of the night, we met a group of white Americans who they all proceeded to chat with. Over the course of the conversation, one of the white guys starts talking to my two Asian American friends and starts the conversation by saying:

White Guy: “So, you guys are Taiwanese?”

AA Friends: “No, we are from America.”

*WG looks at them with a disbelieving smirk*

WG: “I don’t believe you.”

Taiwanese American friend: “Well my parents are from here.”

WG: “But what about you?”

The white guy then proceeded to test them to make them “prove” to him that they were from America. It was absolutely sickening and it went on until I finally cut in:

Me: “Asian Americans exist, you know? They are real and they have agency”

WG: “Not where I’m from in Arizona, they don’t.”

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And at that point I just walked away, as the conversation was obviously over.

White people, please stop denying our lived experiences as POC. And please stop trying to make us prove to you:

  1. That we’re human
  2. That we’re (insert X nationality here) enough for you

It’s absolutely sickening and just goes to show how racist and fucking ignorant you are.

ARGH i hate these kinds of convos so much. Just yesterday, I was at my bf’s little sister’s bday party, and one of the parents there asked me if I was from here, like speaking clear English the whole time wasn’t a good enough indication.

But seriously, if some white guy ever said he didn’t believe that I was American enough, I’d cuss him out so hard right then and there.

— 1 week ago with 137 notes
#sigh  #ignorant people  #racism  #this white guy needs to go fuck himself 

I was really looking forward to seeing Star Trek, because John Cho.

=(

They done fucked up big time with Khan.

— 1 week ago with 1 note
#sigh  #star trek  #John Cho  #now i don't know what to do  #to see or not to see 

mehreenkasana:

insaniyat:

Read the ENTIRE post below.

theneighbourhoodsuperhero:

Torture scenes from the movie Zero Dark Thirty.

Recently released movie Zero Dark Thirty has sparked speculation and criticism amongst many circles for its particular portrayal of the use of torture (in the capture and killing of Osama bin Laden). The movie shows a captive, “Ammar,” being physically, psychologically, sexually, religiously, and culturally humiliated and tortured, specifically being struck, yelled at, deprived of sleep, food, water, and light, put in stress positions for long periods of time, placed in confined spaces, waterboarded, exposed to music torture for long periods of time, forced to be naked (in front of a female), and put on a dog leash and “walked.”

The character of “Ammar” in Zero Dark Thirty seems to be based mainly on Guantanamo Bay detainee Mohammed al-Qahtani (pictured below), a (at the time of his capture) 23 year old Saudi man accused of being the 20th 9/11 hijacker.

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Al-Qahtani underwent a gruesome, 49-day procedure approved by the US Government of physical, psychological, sexual, cultural, and religious torture and humiliation at the hands of the US Military and the CIA in an attempt to “make him talk.”

For 20 hours per day for 49 consecutive days, al-Qahtani was repeatedly physically assaulted, sexually molested by a female, strip searched for “control purposes” (as opposed to security purposes), denied the right to use the toilet and hence urinated and defecated on himself, strapped to a hard metal chair which caused him pain and discomfort, forcibly given an enema, forced to wear female lingerie, forced to be nude, forced to dance with his male interrogator, deprived of sleep, food, and water, exposed to bright lights for months on end, tortured with loud music for long periods of time, exposed to extreme temperatures to the point that he became hypothermic, forcibly straddled and felt up by a female interrogator, forced to watch as an interrogator squatted over a Qur’aan (as if he was defecating on it), woken up by screaming and barking of dogs and other loud noises, punished for falling asleep by having cold water poured over his head, prevented from praying, forced to eat during Ramadhaan, forced to listen to interrogators call his mother and sisters “whores” and threaten his family members, forced to pick up trash with his hands cuffed while being called a pig, repeatedly told that no one cares for him and that the rats in the island are more cared for than he is, placed in tight restraints for long periods of time, deceived into thinking that he is being held in another country, forcibly given IVs, yelled at, chained in stress positions for hours on end, hooded for hours on end, taken to a shrine to Bin Laden and told that Bin Laden was his god and he could only pray to him, forced to look at pornographic content, made to watch puppet shows of himself having sex with men, called a homosexual repeatedly, verbally abused and taunted, put on a dog collar and “taught lessons such as stay, come, and bark to elevate his social status up to that of a dog,” (p. 47), had his beard and hair forcibly shaved, had his phobia (dogs) used against him to induce stress in him, and was threatened with further torture.

Some of these techniques were also used against detainees in Abu Ghraib (relatively less graphic photos shown below):

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Additionally, al-Qahtani was held in isolation for six months.

When al-Qahtani would break down into sobs of pain, anguish, despair, and/or sheer frustration, pleading his interrogators to stop torturing him, his interrogators would yell at him “to prevent him from crying in order to prevent him having an emotional release” (p. 68).  On the  15th day of the 49-day long ordeal, the combined effects of isolation, sleep deprivation, music torture, extreme cold, sensory deprivation, stress positions, sexual assault and various other torture and humiliation methods proved to take their toll on al-Qahtani’s body and mind as his heart rate slowed down to 35 bpm, almost causing him brain damage. The decision was then made to rush him to the hospital in an ambulance to be revived, yet his interrogators continued to interrogate the almost unconscious detainee in the ambulance on the trip to the hospital. Throughout the ordeal, he was repeatedly driven to the brink of death and/or mental exhaustion but was always revived to bear more. The stress positions he was put in for hours on end, such as standing or being short shackled to the floor, caused him blood circulation problems and his limbs to swell. Additionally, al-Qahtani would break down and sob loudly and uncontrollably immediately after being sexually molested (on an almost daily basis), upon which his interrogators would taunt him and ask him what his mother would think of him if she could see him now (getting sexually molested). He became so mentally exhausted throughout the ordeal that he believed himself to be possessed. By the end of the ordeal, al-Qahtani’s weight had fallen from 160 pounds (72 kgs) to 100 pounds (45 kgs).

Several FBI agents who observed al-Qahtani’s treatment filed complaints  that CIA and military interrogators were exposing a detainee (later identified as Mohammed al-Qahtani) in Guantanamo Bay to “abusive and illegal behaviour”. Released in an FBI memo, the complaints of the agents included, “… Detainee chained hand and foot in a foetal position to the floor, with no chair, food or water… urinated and defecated on himself… had been left there for 18 hours or more,” “… The air conditioning had been turned down so far… that the barefooted detainee was shaking with the cold,” “… the A/C had been turned off, making the temperature in the unventilated room probably well over 100 degrees. The detainee was almost unconscious on the floor with a pile of hair next to him. He had apparently been literally pulling his own hair out through the night.” 

Al-Qahtani has retracted all of the statements he made under torture, claiming that the intense torture he underwent made him lie. His lawyer Gitanjali S. Gutierrez stated that “al-Qahtani today appears to be a broken man, fearful and at times disoriented — someone who has painfully described how he could not endure the months of isolation, torture and abuse, during which he was nearly killed, before making false statements to please his interrogators.”  Scott Horton explains this in Taxi To The Dark Side: “Someone who is tortured will tell his interrogator what he thinks the interrogator wants to hear” in order to make them stop the torture.

The convening legal authority of the Guantanamo military commissions, Susan J. Crawford, decided to dismiss all charges against al-Qahtani after reviewing his interrogation log and concluding that he had indeed been tortured. Al Qahtani’s defence team as well as several Pentagon officials and military interrogators believe that the torture he underwent at the hands of the United States prevents “him from ever being put on trial” and prosecuted.

The movie Zero Dark Thirty is hence critiqued as “it glorifies torture: because it powerfully depicts it as a vital step - the first, indispensable step - in what enabled the US to hunt down and pump bullets into America’s most hated public enemy,” when the reality is far from this. Senators who complained about the movie claimed a review of “six million pages of intelligence records indicated that no useful intelligence had been gathered through the use of torture,” rather, they had been provided with “misleading disinformation” from all the detainees they had tortured. “Acting CIA Director Michael J. Morell echoed that sentiment, saying it “creates the strong impression that the enhanced interrogation techniques that were part of our former detention and interrogation program were the key to finding bin Laden. That impression is false.”

The movie propagates the necessity of torture and is bound to influence its viewers to adopt this view.  Emily Bazelon’s article concerning the movie seems to confirm this, as she claims,

“At the end of the interrogation scenes, I felt shaken but not morally repulsed, because the movie had successfully led me to adopt, if only temporarily, [the CIA agent]’s point of view: This treatment is a legitimate way of securing information vital to US interests.”

This type of portrayal in movies and shows has built “a constituency for torture”  which allows the US Government to constantly and repeatedly “get away with the way it twists laws, and treaties (concerning torture) and doesn’t spark popular outrage,” as explained by Professor Alfred McCoy in Taxi To The Dark Side.

The problem with Zero Dark Thirty is hence not with portraying the torture of detainees, as to do otherwise would be to sugarcoat and downplay the use of torture by the United States, but with glorifying torture and propagating it as a necessity (for the security of the United States).

Mohammed al-Qahtani is currently being held in Guantanamo Bay with no official charges pressed against him for an 11th year of detainment (without charge).

Read this. And these as well:

1. Human Rights Watch Statement on Zero Dark Thirty in Jadaliyya

2. Steve Coll: “Zero Dark Thirty is disturbing and misleading.”

Disgusting movie.

— 3 months ago with 2385 notes
#sigh  #United States  #movies  #racism  #hollywood  #zero dark thirty  #torture 
AnimeJune's Obsessions: Warm Bodies - Racist Casting →

thewayistare:

bana05:

lelepop94:

animejune:

Dear Warm Bodies,

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Hey asshole. I was really excited to see your movie. I mean, the main actor’s adorable. The trailer looked hilarious. I love the idea of zombies in love.

I loved your trailer so much I went and read the book it was based on.

And that’s when I realized your movie is a hot…

Go cry and write a book about it you over sensitive whiner. You know who doesn’t need the role of a black actress? A black person. Maybe they’d be more proper for the part, but its not like they need the money. Complain about something that deserves to be recognized. Otherwise STFU.

*crying real tears*

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lelepop, your argument makes the sense that is none, you racist loser

wow, i was wanting to see this movie too.

welp, fuck this whitewashed bullshit. (lelepop is on some wack shit too)

— 3 months ago with 428 notes
#warm bodies  #movies  #whitewashing  #sigh  #hollywood  #racism  #media representation 
"

At first we did not know the identity of the perpetrator. After a discussion about choosing a major, a Latino student quietly shared his anxiety: “God, I hope it’s not a Latino.” Then we heard that the first two victims had been an African-American man and a white woman. “I hope it isn’t a black person,” an African-American colleague told me in the mailroom. “If it is, we’re going to catch hell.”

At a luncheon to welcome prospective Asian and Asian-American students, the fact that the shooter was an Asian man had already entered the conversation. Many in attendance were on edge as they speculated about his ethnicity and immigration status. In an odd game of “guess the shooter,” they didn’t want it to be one of their own: “I hope he’s not Vietnamese”; “I hope he’s not Filipino.” The list went on.

It is revealing that on the day of the shooting, everyone who played the “guess the shooter” game with any sense of personal investment was a member of a minority group. Given our past experiences, we knew that, if the shooter had been white, the responsibility, blame, and anger would have begun with the individual. But for us, the responsibility, blame, and anger also implicated our racial and ethnic identity.

"
 Edward J. W. Park recounting the Virginia Tech Massacre (via faineemae)

(Source: faineemae, via savoto)

— 5 months ago with 4915 notes
#truth  #racism  #sigh  #i think this often too every time a shooting happens  #white privilege 
Racebending.com: Counterarguing the iffy portrayals in Rise of the Guardians →

racebending:

Getting a lot of submissions/asks defending how two characters are portrayed in Rise of the Guardians based on posts from earlier this week (see our tag). The two most common explanations given to defend the depictions of these characters are not true, according to the “The Art of Rise of the Guardians” book I skimmed today at the bookstore.

“The book about the tooth fairy just came out so the filmmakers did not know she was South Asian when they were making the movie.”

Not true.  The filmmakers knew that Tooth was supposed to be South and Southeast Asian. According to the book, her design was “inspired by the half bird, half human gods of ancient Buddhist and Hindu cultures.”   She is inspired by the Thai mythical creature called the kinnaris.    Her headpiece is also inspired by birds in Buddhist artwork.    

Based on the book, it seems like every color was considered for the character’s skin tone before they settled for the final pale white tone—every color except for brown!   In discussing how they settled upon Tooth’s skin color: “We experimented with a variety of colors and shapes.  We couldn’t make her skin too bluish or greenish…yellow would be too much like a canary and blue would remind viewers of Mystique or the Navi.”

The book also says that the Tooth Palace is based on Chinese mountains and Indian and Thai architecture.  It states, “although they movie doesn’t delve into the fairy’s parentage, some of the images (in the palace) hint at a romantic love between an Indian maharaja and a magical bird.”

“The markings on the Bunny are Easter egg markings, not based on aboriginal markings.”

The book says nothing about Easter egg markings.  Instead it says, “We also added some tribal-motif patterns on his body to emphasize the general timeless aura about him.”

The book states that the Easter Bunny’s design is a “mixture of Australian and Japanese influences.”  Initially conceptualized as a professorial British scientist, the casting of Hugh Jackman led the design team to make him an “Austalian Ranger who uses magical boomerangs as weapons.”

— 5 months ago with 137 notes
#Rise of the Guardians  #dreamworks  #sigh  #and i really like this movie too  #disappointing  #media representation  #appropriation  #culture 
Whoa. Angry Asian Man posted about David Phan →

And linked to my post, too.

Though speculation has it that intensive bullying, whether racialized or not, led to his tragic death, a conversation was brought up with me about mental health and how the Asian community approaches it in general.

Long story short, there’s still a huge cultural stigma against even talking about mental health overall in the Asian community. Depression doesn’t exist. Just deal with it.

Which of course, is pretty problematic, as mental health issues is seen as abnormal, and everything would be okay if you just don’t talk about it.

Sounds very similar to the racist argument, “it doesn’t exist if you don’t talk about.”

— 5 months ago with 3 notes
#sigh  #David Phan  #angryasianman  #racism  #mental health  #depression 
Public Shaming: Oppa Gangnam Racist Style?South Korean pop star PSY closed the 2012... →

publicshaming:

Oppa Gangnam Racist Style?

South Korean pop star PSY closed the 2012 American Music Awards with his hit Gangnam Style. Regardless as to whether you like him or are sick of that damn song, here’s a collection of people who are NOT HAPPY that there’s an Asian dude on their AMERICAN Music Awards:

Here come the slurs…

I wonder how many of these awesome people had a problem with Justin Bieber, who is Canadian, or the British boy band One Direction?

Emoji racism?:

But to give you a shimmer of hope, here’s a dude who assumes PSY is from NORTH KOREA but gives the guy all the props in the world:

WOW.

Such racist filth is the bane of this world’s existence. what the FUCK is wrong with these people.

— 6 months ago with 2835 notes
#FUCK EVERYTHING  #STILL PISSED ABOUT THAT POOR ASIAN AUSTRALIAN TOO  #AND THEN I COME ACROSS THIS SHIT  #MOTHERFUCKERS  #psy  #racism  #sigh  #i hate everything 
Practical Alchemy: trungles: Elledy: h2wong: rubato: there’s so goddamn many of us who... →

littlewitchycat:

trungles:

Elledy: h2wong: rubato: there’s so goddamn many of us who have to unlearn…

h2wong:

rubato:

there’s so goddamn many of us who have to unlearn really destructive mentalities regarding success and livelihood

and some of us never have the right people telling us it’s okay to fail and it’s okay to do what we want and I just

‘cause you know what, hearing it from people who don’t live what we live is so often fucking destructive and hurtful too—it sets us up for these expectations that our society actively destroys, and many of us never learn that society’s destroying us in this way

I had white teachers telling us in high school about how omg don’t listen to your parents ~*FOLLOW YOUR DREAMS*~ and about how ~*oh but academics aren’t even really that important*~

and I just

yeah keep telling that to your white students ‘cause for them that’s true

but white people don’t understand the complexity of our family dynamics, particularly when there’s confucian legacies at play that we have to grapple with—are we gonna be bad kids to our parents?  if we turn our backs on our parents like that, are we whitewashing ourselves?  how are we supposed to be asian and american at the same time when the two sets of ideals so often conflict and clash?

and but for us what the hell does “following our dreams” even do for us when asian-americans who pursue work outside of stereotyped roles like scientists, engineers, etc. CANNOT FIND WORK—and those of us who do go into those roles get run over with that ~*too many asians in x*~ rhetoric

yeah tell your asian-american kid to follow his dreams in acting and drama, tell him that when shit like cloud atlas exists and when movies keep getting whitewashed

yeah tell your asian-american kid to follow her dreams of becoming a famous author, knowing in full well that even white authors can’t fucking make it most of the time, nevermind asian authors who aren’t like amy tan and don’t write about how backwards asian culture is so white people can use it to masturbate to and justify their racism

yeah tell your asian-american kid to follow their dreams of becoming a famous pop star, when all they ever see on TV is psy being treated like some goddamn trick horse for [white] US audiences EVEN THOUGH he has formidable professional training and an amazing professional career outside of the ~*silliness*~ of gangnam style

all that white people talk of ~*individualism*~ means shit when we can’t even be seen as individuals in the first place

and if we work hard and we’re good at academics, oh, well, that’s what asians do, that’s inherent in them

if don’t do well at academics (which is a flawed system already), or if we choose not to engage in academics, oh then we’re bad asians and bad examples of our race

we can’t ever win at this and white people don’t understand

but they have the audacity to tell us how we should be living our lives and teaching our kids

nope

fuck off

you do not chase your dreams

you adjust your dreams to what can be done

This is the explanation I wish I could give people when they wonder why I don’t spend more time on my portfolio, why I don’t just apply for grants, why I don’t just pick up and go get my MFA right now. It’s why I’ll postpone my dream of publishing a graphic novel for a decade or two. There are things that need to be done, my parents have given up just about their entire lives for me, and I’m the oldest child. There’s no altruistic heroism or holier-than-thou guilt-goading about it, and I hate it when people ask me why I don’t just go out and get mine. I can’t.

ugh this hits home too fucking much 

my high school guidance counselor told me I should go to art school or go on Project Runway or w/e because I was so good at what I did

and she just couldn’t fucking understand why I cried so much over the fact that I was constantly berated and yelled at when I was home because I stayed up all hours drawing, told over and over it was useless, and that I was never going to make anything of myself because of it.

(via gaobibaituo)

— 6 months ago with 170 notes
#sigh  #truth  #Asian American Identity  #oppression  #asian americans  #not everyone is treated equal 
Islamic women who wear the hijab:I'm constantly discriminated against for wearing my hijab
Everyone:
Islamic women who wear the hijab:I'm treated shittily for wearing my hijab
Everyone:...
Islamic women who wear the hijab:People say horrible things because they see that I wear my hijab
Everyone:
Islamic women who wear the hijab:Hello? Anyone?
Everyone:Shh, no one cares.
Non-Islamic White woman who wears a headscarf for a few hours:I was discriminated and treated shittily and people said horrible things =(
Everyone:OMG YOU GUYS I HOPE THIS A REAL EYE OPENER FOR YOU ALL... THIS ISN'T SOMETHING WE GET INSIGHT ON. BE GRATEFUL SHE SHARED HER EXPERIENCE WITH US, WOW. TRUST THIS BEAUTIFUL WHITE WOMAN AND HER EXPERIENCE TO REPRESENT WHAT GOES ON FOR PEOPLE WHO WEAR HIJABS. Are you okay, delicate snowflake?
Uncle Ruckus:The white woman got a good heart, she got a good heart.
— 6 months ago with 3948 notes
#racism  #white privilege  #islam  #sigh